Crying Over Leaving My Parents

Well, a mother, a real mother 

Is the most wonderful person in the world 

She’s the angel voice that bids you good night 

Kisses your cheek, whispers, “Sleep tight”
 Your mother and mine
Your mother and mine
The helping hand that guides you along

Whether you’re right, whether you’re wrong

Your mother and mine

Your mother and mine

What makes mothers all that they are?

Might as well ask, “What makes a star?”
Ask your heart to tell you her worth
Your heart will say, “Heaven on earth”
Another word for divine
Your mother and mine

My mom is the absolute best person I know. She has taught me to learn from my mistakes and she and my dad have always encouraged me to follow my dreams. They have my back through everything. Moving away is one of the hardest yet most exciting things to happen to me. I’m so happy that I have their support. <– Yes I stole that from my own Facebook, but it's so entirely true and I'm sitting here crying and there really isn't anything more to be said other than I love my parents so FREAKING MUCH that it KILLS me that I'm leaving. I know they will visit often, because that's how they are, but it won't be the same. It's the only reason I even get upset about leaving. Yes, I will miss Jaelen and my dogs and grandparents like absolute CRAZY, but parents are just a special kind of people. 

Christmas, Packing, Birthday Resolutions, and More!

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything. Basically, my life is full of anticipation for the near future, and one can only say

so many times before it becomes obvious. Also, the only thing I’ve even been able to think about writing is about the Duck Dynasty stuff that everyone has been talking nonstop about. 
But, honestly, anyone who knows me knows EXACTLY how I feel about the topic, and so I will save it for another day when it isn’t expected. The hipster inside of me wants to wait anyway until it’s no longer on the trending topics to mention it. 
Christmas happened. That’s a thing. I pretty much had the best Christmas ever. Nothing can really beat having the one-and-only Mickey Mouse call you while you’re watching the Disney Parks Christmas Parade to tell you you’re going on a Disney Cruise right before DCP check-in. So Christmas will be continuing for weeks! Sorry, Piper. WHICH IS ANOTHER THING. My sister is such a Grinch. She HATES Christmas so insanely much. I don’t understand. I love Christmas. 
I’ve been struggling with packing these last few days, just knowing how far I will be away from home and HATING the idea of not bringing something I need ASAP just to have to buy it there when it’s sitting at home. I would rather bring too much then spend money I didn’t need to if I’d just brought the dumb thing in the first place. Not only am I packing for life in Florida, but I’m also packing for the drive down there and the day or two at the parks, but now I am also packing for the three day cruise from the 8th-11th. So I’m trying to figure out what to pack where so I know where it all is!

Something else I decided to do it forget about New Year’s Resolutions. Not like anyone ever keeps up with theirs anyway. But I AM choosing to decide my resolutions a week and a half early and do Birthday Resolutions instead. It’s basically the same thing since my birthday is so close to New Years. BUT it makes more sense to say you want to do something during a certain age. So here are my 20 Year Old Resolutions:

  1. Train for a half marathon
  2. Begin reviewing things. (I suck at trying to review, so I want to get better at that)
  3. Be able to do a handstand
 I say I want to TRAIN for a half marathon, but I want to do the WDW Half or Princess Half which are in January and February, so I can’t complete it while being 20, but I definitely want to get to that point in the next year. 

As far as reviewing goes, yes, I watch a lot of movies, read a lot of books, listen to a lot of music, but I really struggle with thoughts when I say if I like something or not. In the next year I would really like to focus on explaining WHY I like or don’t like something. I think watching BookTube reviews and seeing blog posts on certain things will really help me develop my own opinions and be able to express them. It takes practice, which I have zero of!
For the handstand, doing that involves gaining muscle and upper body strength. While that is the end goal, there is a lot that goes into it. This also means I will have to do some yoga and other things that will help gain that strength to be able to accomplish this goal! I have been wanting to get into yoga for a long time, but am too self-conscious to go to an actual class, so I’m stuck doing things in my room from YouTube until I can gain some confidence to find a good outlet for it. 
My journey to Florida begins on Saturday. My entire life will be packed up into my car and my mom’s car to take me to live at the Happiest Place on Earth. I switch from being insanely ready and excited and nothing-can-stop-me feeling, to being terrified and upset with the realization of how far away I am going and the people I will be leaving here. It’s such a HUGE thing and a MAJOR life change for me that I know I will learn from and grow through it. Still, it’s a lot for me. But I know I will not regret the opportunity I have been given, even as I sit in my room like: 
So don’t expect a lot from me in the next little bit of time on here. If you care, follow me on other social media for up-to-date information until I write a full wrap-up probably after I’m settled in Orlando! I’ll have plenty of photos and videos that I will want to share!

Jamberry Nails

This post is definitely a shameless plug and giant infomercial. But trust me, if you need a gift or just something for yourself, hear me out!

My mom was invited to an online party for a friend of hers selling Jamberry Nails. She bought a few just to support her friend, and ended up falling in love with this product! So she signed up to sell them, and I signed up under her because they had a Black Friday special and it was too good a deal even if I don’t do anything with it. So first, let me tell you about what this is and why you should care. Nails are nail wraps that come in hundreds of designs. One sheet is $15 and comes with enough to do each hand 2-3 times (or more if you mix and match) and even enough to do some toes.

Putting the nails on is super easy. I put mine on over both polish and shellac, and they worked fine. Jamberry made a video showing how to apply the nails. Seriously. So easy.

Once they’re on, the wraps should stay on for at least two weeks, at least that’s about how long my mom’s lasted until she got her new ones and wanted to change them. It feels very natural, and no different than having shellac done–especially if you’ve put them on right!

Here’s what mine look like:

I’ve got Aztec Afternoon and the plain white tip on currently.

Go to and browse! They have sorority wraps, bold patterns, solid colors that are available in matte, solid, and glimmer, sports, and more! Some that I think are really cool are the clear background ones. You can get nail wraps with basketballs on a clear wrap, so you can support your team by painting your nails in their colors and it shows through under the basketballs. Or the holiday Christmas lights are the same: paint your nails red and green under the wrap! You can’t really tell in my photos, but under the white tip wraps my nail is painted a sparkly nude/light pink that shows through.

Got a little girl to buy for? The Jamberry Juniors are sets of nail wraps especially for the tiniest nails! These come with two styles, the top style having 14 wraps and the bottom style with 28. There are more on the site, but here is a screen shot of a few.

The heater they sell is very easy to use, but a hair dryer works just as well! In the same way, sure you could buy an “orange stick” with the nail kit they offer, but a toothpick or a wooden skewer would probably be just as efficient. As long as you don’t touch the part about to go on your nail, you’ll be fine. 
These are really great gifts for women you know who love doing their nails. Or if you enjoy it yourself, but don’t have the time. It’s super quick to put on and you don’t have to be helpless for hours while polish dries. Plus, the designs on these are über-cute!
And for those of us doing the DCP that will have to adhere to the Disney Look that doesn’t allow fun nail styles, there are still options for us! The white tips look SO natural, and it’s way cheaper than going and getting a manicure every time you need one. There are also quite a few neutral colors/light pinks, that, depending on your skin tone, could very well maintain the Disney Look but still giving you a manicured look. 
So, if you are ever interested, go to my website listed above and order some! They ship right to you, so you don’t have to worry about placing an order through me and me having to get it to you. You’re welcome to order through me if you’d rather, but it’s so much simpler to do it online. Feel free to contact me with any questions you might have! I want to have a “party” for these online to market these, so if you are interested in being invited to that please let me know! I’d like to do it before I leave for Orlando, which is in three weeks! 

One Month

It’s December 13th.

It’s 8 days till my birthday.
12 days till Christmas.
I guess it didn’t register yesterday that today would mark 1 month till DCP takeoff. But when I woke up at 4:30 in the morning to check my phone and Paige tweeted this lovely reminder:
It’s getting down to the wire. I have a lot of “lasts” coming up. It’s both exciting and scary. This is different than leaving for college in Abilene, this is the other side of the country. There are 1260 miles between Lubbock and Orlando. I can’t just drive home for a quick weekend like I could last year. This next 8 months will definitely change me, and help me grow. But before that I have:
  • My birthday in 8 days on the 21st.
  • 4 more days at Always Tan. My last day is the 23rd.
  • 11 more days at my parent’s store. My last day is the 4th.
  • Lots of last-minute things to do to prepare like:
    • Get the oil changed in my car and check tire pressure before our road trip.
    • Finish packing and load up the cars.
    • Hang out with my friends one last time.
    • Spend Christmas with my family.
    • Clean out my car and room.
  • Go to Inkfluence and have them remove my conch piercing. I didn’t realize that you can’t just unscrew the ring, but in fact have to pry it apart. So that’s fun. 
Yesterday, Athena’s and my shower curtain came in the mail! I bought that, and she got the bathmat and trashcan and other necessities. We’ll buy the shower liner when we get down there. I’ve never felt like such an adult and child at the same time buying my own Mickey Mouse shower curtain for my apartment. There’s still a lot we will need to buy once we’re there; things like food and cleaning supplies and such. 
It’s just still becoming real. I don’t think it will really hit me fully until I am going through Traditions, and even then, I won’t believe it. 

The Importance of Working for Disney

I’m writing this very late after-the-fact, but I feel like I need to stick up for myself and for others in a similar situation. When it come to doing the DCP, for a lot of people, the program is VERY important to them. It’s important in many ways, because they have grown up loving Disney and the movies and the characters and what the company means. Doing the program is a dream come true for people like me. It’s more important that I get to learn about working for the company that I love and get to create magical moments for guests than it is that I’m getting to put it on my resume. I would do the program even if it wasn’t impressive on my resume. It means that much to me that I participate in this great and magical opportunity.

I’ve had more magical moments AS a guest in the parks than I could even imagine. I’ve had great experience waiting in long lines for characters:
The Character Attendant for Phineas and Ferb last May:

Him: “are you a mermaid?”
Him:”It’s the hair. I knew it.”
Me:”I only have three days here!!”
Him:”Oh, you have to find a prince! You know what you should do? Marry one of the Star Wars guys. That way you can be on land AND the galaxy! “

Me:”Eeeehhh Illthink about it.”
And this:
Not to mention that both my 18th and 19th birthdays and graduation were celebrated in a Disney Park. Nothing is more magical than having every CM that sees you genuinely wish you a happy birthday. During the first trip, we were eating in Adventureland at Tortuga and a little girl from the next table ran over to me and told me happy birthday. Just being there with the generally-happy people (obviously there are grumpies, but I’ve had good experiences so far) is really amazing. 
I saw this post on Tumblr the other day:
I hope you can read it, because it’s exactly how I feel. And I read this after something that happened to me, and the real reason for this post. Link here because the photo isn’t very clear.
I understand not everyone doing the program BLEEDS DISNEY like me. But I know enough people that do and I know how important the program is to them. Others are just doing it as a job. I’ve seen many people admit that they feel guilty because they see how much this means to some people, and people that didn’t get in the program this year. They feel bad that they got accepted and it doesn’t mean the same to them. What I don’t understand is, why would you even APPLY to the program if you didn’t believe in what you were going to do for 5-8 months? Would it not be hard to “fake” the magic everyone else naturally feels? I could work at some government internship for 8 months and want to kill myself because I don’t speak that lingo or feel anything for that. So I won’t apply for anything like that, even if it looked good on a resume. 
One of the (few) things I’ve loved about the main DCP Facebook page is the advice from alumni. One said they regretted not knowing any basic Spanish while on their program, because so many people speak it that come to the parks and it was difficult to communicate. I totally agreed with this, and it’s made me look up some vocabulary I might need, just to be able to know a few words here and there. I’ve had 6 years of Spanish, but due to the lack of great teachers, I don’t know as much as I should. So though I will not, most likely, have a name tag like this:
I hope to someday. But I thought this person’s post was helpful. They weren’t saying “You need to be bilingual before doing the program” but were just saying pick up some basic direction words that would be very useful to other guests. 
On Twitter later, a girl I followed (note past-tense) was going off about how there was no way she would learn another language just for a minimum wage job and she didn’t want to be yelled at in another language anyway. It was several Tweets in a row talking badly about this Facebook post and so I subtweeted. Some subtweets are mean, but that was not my intention. And, honestly, it wasn’t just about her. Like I said above, many people have made comments about the program that do not reflect my views and opinions. I subtweeted basically what I said earlier, “If you aren’t excited about the program, why did you even apply?” and she called me out on it. The night before I had a conversation with someone else doing the program who admitted to me that he is just doing the program to do it. This tweet was NOT just about this one particular girl, but it was on my mind because of her mini-rant. 
(direct screenshot quote) “Yeah, people are going to go though the trouble of learning an entire language for a fucking minimum wage job. Disney People.” 
My subtweet.
“Because I want to terrorize you all. I’m just kidding. I am excited lol. I just think some of these people are overly obsessed.”
“Yeaaaah I’m one of those people XD Sorry I have dreams” complete with the little laughing-so-hard-they’re-crying emoji. See, I wasn’t arguing with her. I was laughing and owning up to it. Even saying “sorry I have dreams” wasn’t sarcastic in my meaning. It probably appeared that way, but it wasn’t my intention.
“Well good for you. My dream is to be a lawyer, advocating for children in the foster case system. Yours is just the DCP.” 
and then some other girl I don’t know replied with “Mmmmm those minimum wage dreams, the best kind! #girlbye” 
I did respond to the lawyer comment and told her–GENUINELY–“I wish you the best! n_n That’s a wonderful and fulfilling career.” And I meant every word of it!! I don’t care if she thought I was being patronizing, I wasn’t. 
Then lawyer-girl continues “Okay I don’t want to fight with you. I apologize for even responding to your tweet. I just knew it was about me. “ 
and continues again “I know I seem cynical but that’s just my personality. I love Disney and am very proud to be selected to work there.” 
and STILL continues, “I don’t want enemies before we even get there. I’ll try not to complain so much about Disney people anymore.”

I never replied, because whatever I would have said would have been awful. Not to say I didn’t share my thoughts with Jaelen and my friend who loves Disney just as much if not more than me, Colin. But I wasn’t going to lash out on this girl I don’t even know. But honestly, it’s like the Tumblr post above. My “dream” isn’t doing the DCP for the rest of my life. It’s a stepping stone to it, yes. My dreams aren’t over in August. But they do start in January. The way she and the other girl responded, you’d think I’d told them my dream was to work at McDonalds. Working for Disney is so much more than just a job to pay bills. That isn’t why I’m doing it. Trust me, everyone says, “Don’t do the DCP to make money because you won’t.” But I AM doing it because it is what will get me to working within the company later on, if that is what I want to do in the future. 
So, if you want to get through it and put it on your resume and then go do whatever the heck you want, go for it. As for me and others that I know, I’m going to make the very most of my program and my experience and be the very best Cast Member that I can possibly be and I will work hard, earn my Four Keys Fanatic recognition cards, and find where I want to be within the company. I will follow the rules and withhold the legacy of the company that Walt himself set in place. #GirlBye

WDW Attractions List

This list SHOULD be complete of all attractions at the Walt Disney World Resort. If I missed anything, it’s show of some kind. But as far as rides themselves, this should be it. I made the list so I can easily cross off what I do when I am down in Florida. An asterisk * marks rides I have done in the past, though in order to cross off “ride every ride” from my DCP Bucket List, I want to do them all while actually ON my program. With everything on my list, it must be started and completed during the length of my program. 

Magic Kingdom

Main Street, U.S.A.
Walt Disney World Railroad
Main Street Vehicles
*Town Square Theater
Sorcerers of the Magic Kingdom
Adventure land
*Jungle Cruise
The Magic Carpets of Aladdin
*Pirates of the Caribbean
*Swiss Family Treehouse
*Walt Disney’s Enchanted Tiki Room
A Pirate’s Adventure: Treasures of the Seven Seas
*Splash Mountain
*Big Thunder Mountain Railroad
Country Bear Jamboree
Frontierland Shootin’ Arcade
*Tom Sawyer Island
Walt Disney World Railroad
Liberty Square
*The Hall of Presidents
*Haunted Mansion
Liberty Belle Riverboat
*Cinderella Castle
*It’s a Small World
*Mad Tea Party
*The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh
Mickey’s PhilharMagic
*Peter Pan’s Flight
Prince Charming Regal Carrousel
Under the Sea: Journey of the Little Mermaid
*Ariel’s Grotto
Enchanted Tales with Belle
Dumbo the Flying Elephant
The Barnstormer featuring Goofy as The Great Goofini
Casey Junior Splash ‘n’ Soak Station
*Pete’s Silly Sideshow
Princess Fairytale Hall
Seven Dwarfs Mine Train
Astro Orbiter
*Buzz Lightyear’s Space Ranger Spin
*Monsters, Inc. Laugh Floor
*Stitch’s Great Escape!
*Space Mountain
*Tomorrowland Speedway
Tomorrowland Transit Authority PeopleMover
Walt Disney’s Carousel of Progress
Future World
The Seas
Turtle Talk
Living With The Land
Circle of Life
Image Works
Captain EO
*Spaceship Earth
Energy Adventure
*Mission Space Orange and Green
Test Track
World’s Showcase
Agent P Adventure
*O Canada
Impressions de France
American Adventure
Reflections of China
*Gran Fiesta Tour
Hollywood Studios
*Rock N Roller Coaster
*Tower of Terror
Magic of Disney Animation
Captain Jack Sparrow
*Toy Story Mania
Backlot Tour
Action Stunt Show
Honey I Shrunk the Kids
Muppet 3D
*Star Tours
Drew Carey Sounds
Indiana Jones stunt show
American Idol
*Great Movie Ride
Animal Kingdom
*Expedition Everest
Kali River Rapids
Jungle Trek
Flights of Wonder
Adventurers Outpost
*Tough to Be A Bug
*Kilimanjaro Safari
Pangani Trail


Updated DCP Bucket List

I’ve already made a DCP Bucket List (Here) but I know that the list is very short in comparison to what all WDW has to offer. So I did some Googling and found this blog post on Tumblr of a great bucket list. So I kind of stole it. But it’s okay since I am giving her credit, right?

Like Stephanie says, I want to document as many of these as I can to “cross them off” so after my program begins, search the hashtag #OICdcpBucketList and that’s where you’ll find my completed items (@featherstach3) (@featherstach3). And, in addition to my life bucket list in the tabs above, I will add a DCP Bucket List tab to easily see what I have accomplished and when.

I will update the tab as I discover new things to add to my list! If I’ve missed anything, please let me know!

Meet Talking Mickey
See all the castle stage shows
See all the shows
Earn my ears
Pin trade
Collect Vinylmation
Meet someone from all 50 states
See a celebrity
Witness a proposal
Visit each park open-close
Play grocery bingo
See the underground tunnels
Witness a Make-A-Wish child’s wish being granted
Be in the parks while Kidd’s Kids are there
Extend my program
Apply for a PI
Find hidden Mickeys
Find the talking water fountain
Watch every parade in every park
Collect a FASTPASS from every attraction
See the Welcome Show and Goodnight Kiss at MK
Visit all 4 parks in a day
Take a picture with every character possible
Go to the water parks
Play Agent P and Sorcerers of the Magic Kingdom
Become a Wilderness Explorer
Ride all the boats
Eat in every restaurant
Ride every attraction
Hotel hop
Do the Haunted Mansion backstage tour

Collect every Disney pressed penny
See the abandoned parks (Discovery Island and River Country)

DCP Send-Off and Frozen Weather

Last week, I received an email from a DCP campus rep for Texas Tech congratulating myself and the 9 others participating in DCP Spring 2014. He invited us to a “Send-off party” so we would be able to get to know each other a little in order to have some home connections before leaving for Florida, as well as to talk to some DCP alumni. I was actually really looking forward to going, but today, the day of said party, this is what the weather was doing at 9 am:

Basically, Anna upset Elsa. 
so I had to feel like this all day:
And basically sang “Let It Go” and “Do You Wanna Build A Snowman” while watching the weather get worse and worse and worse. 
I didn’t get to go, because I’d rather not die trying to drive somewhere. I already know one guy that’s doing the program, and have made plenty of friends from all over that will be down there. Some are alumni and some are going to figure it out with me. I’m still a little disappointed the weather did what it did, but it just meant I got to take a four hour nap today instead. 

25 Things to Do Before You’re 25

I found this list on Tumblr earlier this evening, and really liked it.


25 Things To Do Before You Turn 25″

1. Make peace with your parents. Whether you finally recognize that they actually have your best interests in mind or you forgive them for being flawed human beings, you can’t happily enter adulthood with that familial brand of resentment.

2. Kiss someone you think is out of your league; kiss models and med students and entrepreneurs with part-time lives in Dubai and don’t worry about if they’re going to call you afterward.
3. Minimize your passivity.
4. Work a service job to gain some understanding of how tipping works, how to keep your cool around assholes, how a few kind words can change someone’s day.
5. Recognize freedom as a 5:30 a.m. trip to the diner with a bunch of strangers you’ve just met.
6. Try not to beat yourself up over having obtained a ‘useless’ Bachelor’s Degree. Debt is hell, and things didn’t pan out quite like you expected, but you did get to go to college, and having a degree isn’t the worst thing in the world to have. We will figure this mess out, I think, probably; the point is you’re not worth less just because there hasn’t been an immediate pay off for going to school. Be patient, work with what you have, and remember that a lot of us are in this together.
7. If you’re employed in any capacity, open a savings account. You never know when you might be unemployed or in desperate need of getting away for a few days. Even $10 a week is $520 more a year than you would’ve had otherwise.
8. Make a habit of going outside, enjoying the light, relearning your friends, forgetting the internet.
9. Go on a 4-day, brunch-fueled bender.
10. Start a relationship with your crush by telling them that you want them. Directly. Like, look them in the face and say it to them. Say, I want you. I want to be with you.
11. Learn to say ‘no’ — to yourself. Don’t keep wearing high heels if you hate them; don’t keep smoking if you’re disgusted by the way you smell the morning after; stop wasting entire days on your couch if you’re going to complain about missing the sun.
12. Take time to revisit the places that made you who you are: the apartment you grew up in, your middle school, your hometown. These places may or may not be here forever; you definitely won’t be.
13. Find a hobby that makes being alone feel lovely and empowering and like something to look forward to.
14. Think you know yourself until you meet someone better than you.
15. Forget who you are, what your priorities are, and how a person should be.
16. Identify your fears and instead of letting them dictate your every move, find and talk to people who have overcome them. Don’t settle for experiencing .000002% of what the world has to offer because you’re afraid of getting on a plane.
17. Make a habit of cleaning up and letting go. Just because it fit at one point doesn’t mean you need to keep it forever — whether ‘it’ is your favorite pair of pants or your ex.
18. Stop hating yourself.
19. Go out and watch that movie, read that book, listen to that band you already lied about watching, reading, listening to.
20. Take advantage of health insurance while you have it.
21. Make a habit of telling people how you feel, whether it means writing a gushing fan-girl email to someone whose work you love or telling your boss why you deserve a raise.
22. Date someone who says, “I love you” first.
23. Leave the country under the premise of “finding yourself.” This will be unsuccessful. Places do not change people. Instead, do a lot of solo drinking, read a lot of books, have sex in dirty hostels, and come home when you start to miss it.
24. Suck it up and buy a Macbook Pro.
25. Quit that job that’s making you miserable, end the relationship that makes you act like a lunatic, lose the friend whose sole purpose in life is making you feel like you’re perpetually on the verge of vomiting. You’re young, you’re resilient, there are other jobs and relationships and friends if you’re patient and open.

January Nelson


This is copied and pasted straight from the post in which I found it. I just thought it was a great list that reminds me, personally, that everyone is human and has doubts, fears, and dreams. This post encourages me to just worry about myself and not worry about others like I tend to do.