Personal Development Success and Failure

I think there’s something really important in trial and error. It teaches us that having desires alone won’t get us where we want to go; we have to maintain motivation throughout the entire journey if we want to succeed. I don’t believe that leaving a goal incomplete is a bad thing as long as you made an effort in some way.

Did I make thirty-one entries in my journal or on my blog? No, but I brought conscious thought to the idea of writing and keeping myself accountable in other ways. To me, that isn’t failure.

However, I do want to continue the mindset of having short and long-term goals and holding myself accountable to moving to reach them. Pausing, inching forward, and dead sprinting are all acceptable; moving backward is not.

At the beginning of the year I set monthly goals for myself both here and in my bullet journal. That’s a practice I miss. I’d like to continue that through the end of the year as a way of “checking in” on my long-term goals to ensure I’m on the right track. These goals usually range from professional, personal, and financial, and completing even one per month is a success to me. Stay tuned.

Do you have a favorite way of keeping track of goals? Do you use sticky notes on your bathroom mirror, journal about them, or just keep them mentally? I’d love to hear others’ ways of keeping track of their personal development!


February Goals

I’m very happy to announce that in January I completed 8/10 of my planned goals. Not only did I successfully do the 10 I set out to, I also made great progress in creating lasting habits for my health and well-being. It isn’t important which goals I did or did not meet, what matters most is that I was able to achieve more than I thought I would for the month. 

With that being said, I decided on my February goals. I have less on my list this month, and some are the same or slightly different, while some are new. Although I’m doing a lot of focusing on the short-term goals, I haven’t forgotten about the long term; many of my goals I set intentionally to get into the habit of doing it, so I can eventually turn around and utilize them for a longterm plan. An example would be more exercise: someday I want to comfortably complete a full marathon. I can’t do that without consistent running and training (and diet!!) every day. Another would be my writing: four blog posts a month at minimum gives me the practice and experience to someday get paid for writing.  “I want to learn everything I can, and write down everything I see. Golly says if I want to be a writer, I’d better start now…”

  • Publish 4 blog posts
  • Read 4 books
  • Work out 4 days a week
  • Put (and keep) money in savings
  • Continue to clean and de-clutter
  • No soda

I feel good. These may seem like more “to-do” list items, but they mean more than that to me. These goals mean working to become a better person, both physically and mentally. I want to learn, I want to feel stable, I want to feel strong. I’m so ready to be the best I can be. This month I also want to sit down and seriously begin to plan out my long-term life goals, and I’ll be sure to write about it when I know more myself. 

What I Would Do With $1.4 Billion

With all this talk of the Powerball, I will admit that I gave in and bought tickets. Why not? The grand prize is 1.4 BILLION dollars, how can you not at least take a shot? You either win something or you lose $2. The odds of winning the grand prize are 1 in 292,201,338, and no one has won in months. But the odds are worse if I don’t play at all.

So I bought 10 tickets, and tonight we will see what I win. I’m feeling confident, because why not? I’ve never done anything like this; I’ve never bought lottery tickets or put in the effort to care about it. But with it being such a hot topic right now I thought it might be fun to say I was a part of the national hubub.

What would I do with that kind of money? There’s honestly very little that I want or need. Still, I have a list of things that I would do with any expendable money I were to receive. Here we go. In no particular oder I would:

  • Pay off Jay’s and my student loans (and be able to pay for all the school in the future), as well as any credit card debt between the two of us
  • Buy a small house/condo in cash so I only have to worry about property taxes and utilities
  • Pay off my car
  • Buy Jay a motorcycle
  • Buy my parents a house and pay off whatever debt they have
  • Have my own personal library
  • Adopt more dogs. Hell, we’ll have a dalmatian plantation
  • Get more tattoos

And even then, I’d still have millions and millions of dollars left. I’d take time off from work and take adventures. I’d travel and visit all the Disney parks worldwide. I’d take trips I’ve always envied people taking to countries all over the world. I’d help my friends and family that might be struggling financially. And of course, I’d put lots in savings and invest the rest.


Ican’t even picture what $1.4 billion dollars would look like. I imagine Scrooge McDuck and his swimming pool of gold coins. 

Honestly, besides being debt-free and living on my own, not much would actually change. I would still work, otherwise I’d be bored as hell. But I could focus on things that bring me joy because I wouldn’t have to worry so much about being able to pay for necessities. I’m just dreaming. It’s fun to think about all the things I would do with such a large sum of money. Most of what is on my list are things that I’m working toward anyway. But it would  be fun to pay it down immediately.

What would you do if you were to win the lottery? I feel like most people would have a list similar to mine.


Two Years

Tomorrow marks two years since checking into my Disney College Program. In two years I have “earned my ears” five times, learning two different roles, three attractions, and two systems. My time working at Walt Disney World has been contained to Magic Kingdom, with the exception of a few merchandise shifts picked up here and there. But for two years I have been statused to the most magical of all the parks at the WDW Resort. I’ve had a lot of great times here, and I’ve dealt with my share of heartache here as well. 

In those two years, I have loved what I do, but I have also struggled with coming to work. During my time here, half has been in a place I consider home away from home, while the rest has been less-than-desirable. I know I’m able to be an A+ Cast Member, because I’ve been that before. Currently, I feel as though I waver between being a C and a B- Cast Member at best. I’ve become the person who shows up to work and collects a check. 

I see nothing wrong with having that kind of job. A job is meant to support you and yours financially and it doesn’t have to be fun. But I’ve had jobs that I loved, and I’ve had that at Disney, and I believe that I still can. Recently, I’ve been in a major depression that has affected how I am at work and how I see my position with this company. For a while, it seemed as though I was going to be stuck here for the rest of my life–and that isn’t the way I wanted to think about a job with Disney. I thought because I came to Florida to work for Disney that it was the only career option I could ever have now. I have come to realize that, yes, Orlando did call me here. But it doesn’t mean I have to be stuck. Just making that connection with myself has made all the difference. 

With that, I’m making a change in my Disney career. I’m going to try to find my place here again, and I think going to a different park may be the best thing for me right now. Too many thing in Magic Kingdom remind me of the past and I think it’s prohibiting me from moving on. Not only am I going to try and find my place in a different park, I’ve also made the decision to allow myself to leave if I don’t find my place. I used to think I would be a failure if I quit Disney because that’s why I moved here. Now I know that is not the case. As long as I don’t leave on bad terms or get fired, I can always come back. I can come back front-line, or I could come back professionally once I finish school. All I know is I’m not tied to anything. 

I genuinely hope that I find home again. But I’ve made peace with myself to not feel so much pressure about it. All I want is to feel happy going to play at the parks for fun and to not hate my job. Life is too short to hate your job, especially when you work for Disney. 

In the meantime, I’m going to send in my college transcripts and work on a degree and see where that takes me. Life is so vast and at times scary, but I will never regret the experiences I have had in Orlando and I hope to have many more adventures here. So happy two-year anniversary to me, and here’s to whatever future time I spend here. 


Welcome to My Normal

It’s really amazing how normal my life feels. Walking down Main Street at Midnight because I can, running to EPCOT for lunch, seeing a movie at Downtown Disney, making a day of Universal Studios. Every bit of this is my norm now. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would (basically) live at the Magic Kingdom. It’s been three months, and every day I can’t get over how amazingly blessed I am to be living my dreams at Walt Disney World.

It makes me really sad for those who are miserable being here. First of all, life is too short to hate your job. And second of all, of all the jobs to be miserable at, Walt Disney World isn’t the place for that. I know plenty of people who do nothing but complain about working here. They exude negativity, and guests notice. I will NEVER be a Cast Member who has to work at WDW. I will forever be a Cast Member who gets paid to play at Magic Kingdom and make great memories for families on vacation. 
Being a pirate isn’t a job. It’s a lifestyle. 
It’s true. But seriously, even on days where “work” is hard, I don’t have to force myself out of the apartment to go to my job, because it isn’t a job to me. I have so much fun with my friends and guests and my leaders. I get my work done like I’m supposed to, but I love finding ways to make it enjoyable. Sweeping the queue isn’t all that fun and it makes me hate people who leave trash on the floor three feet away from a trash can. But I don’t care. Because being here means so much to me and I’ll never lose that. A lot of Cast Members either lost it a long time ago, or never got here with it. Some people deserve to be Cast Members, and others work here. There’s a huge difference. 
I will forever be a Cast Member. A Cast Member who never loses themselves in “working” but can’t wait to see what guests they can meet today. That’s the coolest part of my job: meeting different people every single day. Occasionally seeing the same person a time or two, but every day brings new “First Visits” and that makes me so excited to be a pirate. I get to experience families on their first visit to Walt Disney World and be a part of their vacation. I wish I knew why some Cast Members are so miserable. We work in the most Magical Place on Earth. We are so lucky to be here in this “normal” that some people may only get to experience once in their lives, or may never get to experience. I love sharing my “normal” with them. 

New Beginnings in the DCP

Sorry it’s been so long. But I’m back now, and this is going to be a long post since it is going to recap my entire life–WITHOUT SPOILERS– for the last three weeks. SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE, YOU GUYS HOLY CRAP.

I guess we can start with the night before check-in. I won’t be talking about the cruise or the drive here, because I’ll write a recap of that in another post. But DCP takes priority. We got in Sunday and went to EPCOT, and met up with my roommates at the Polynesian! We ate dinner at Captain Cooks, and Jenna and Athena were the first ones there. I was worried it could be potentially awkward, meeting the people you’re going to start living with the next day. But IMMEDIATELY I knew rooming with them was going to be awesome. Paige came a little later because she was at Hollywood Studios with some friends. When she came, she brought her friend and her roommate from her previous program.

How precious are we? Instant friends. 
We got Dole Whips from the Polynesian, which is the best place to get them, since you pay for the cup, not the amount you get. <– Yes that is abused, and Paige's friend taught me how to abuse it; it's called "Stacking a Dole Whip." They have competitions to see who can  get more. 
No, I didn’t eat it all. I didn’t know what she was doing until she handed me this massive mountain of sugar. I threw half of it in the trash can and immediately felt bad for wasting it. 

We then went to the beach at the resort and watched Wishes. Apparently that’s something EVERYONE wants to do at least once during their program. Whoops. The little bit of hipster in me was disappointed that it wasn’t more original. 😉

Wishes is always beautiful, though. No matter how or where you watch it. 
We decided to wander around the resort, and the others along the Monorail stops. This meant the Polynesian, Grand Floridian, and The Contemporary. The Grand Floridian is so beautiful on the inside–I’d never been in before. Here is the view from the top of the Contemporary if you’ve ever wondered:
We went our separate ways for the night then. But morning came, and check-in happened. Waiting in lines…and more lines. And waiting in lines for lines. Pretty much a boring, but necessary process of paperwork, ID photos, schedules, and more lines. We met at Vista Way around 9:00, and spent several hours there until it was all done. I was told a little more information about my role; I went from knowing I was in Attractions to knowing my location: Adventureland/Liberty Square. I was super disappointed not to find out my specific attraction that day, and I didn’t learn until Thursday. 
After check-in, we all went to find our apartment until Athena and I had Casting. Paige rode over with me, and when we got there, Jenna and her mom told us they’d been outside the apartment for about thirty minutes because the key didn’t work. We all tried our keys–no go. So Jenna finally went to find maintenance to come fix it. When the man finally got there, I got to take two loads of stuff up before I needed to get on the bus to head to Casting. More lines awaited me there. But there was a lot of interesting things to look at in the Casting building that made me cry all over everything in my mind because of all the Disney and DCP heritage on the walls. 
I didn’t get a typical photo of the doorknobs of the main door. But I didn’t want to hold up traffic just for an Instagram photo. 
I met a lot of people at Casting. When you wait in line with the same people for four hours, you kind of have to make friends. Everyone was so nice, and each of the Cast Members helping us through the lines were wonderful and excited for us. After that, I was done for the day and went back to my apartment and unloaded my car and started to unpack. 

The next day, Tuesday,  I had to do a drug test because of my role. But that was all I had that day, and Wednesday was a housing meeting. Everyone complained that the housing meeting was boring, but it wasn’t that bad. Yes, to ME it was all obvious things because I’m not a party-crazed alcoholic idiot. But for those who are, they can sit through an hour of rules and suffer and maybe feel guilty for being dumbs. But they won’t. But that isn’t my problem. 
Thursday was Traditions, and the first magical day on property. The bus picked us up to take to Disney University for a day of learning the Disney Way. Firstly, every part of the DU building is magical. Every wall is covered in Disney, and characters are peeking out of nooks and crannies. 

I won’t ruin Traditions itself. The point of my posts about the DCP is not to give a “tutorial” of what to expect from the program. That ruins the magic and fun of going through it yourself. I’ve seen pretty much every other blog tell you step-by-step what you will go through, and I don’t read those. I want to know your PERSONAL experience that is unique to you and your feelings. Not giving everything away. 
I DID get misty-eyed through pretty much the whole day. We watched a lot of videos and actually went into Magic Kingdom for a few minutes and it became even more real what I was doing. Through the whole process this week interacting with current CMs, it made it even clearer to me that I want to be here for forever. I want to be able to see the new Cps or CMs come in and be excited for them to begin their journey, knowing I was in their shoes. 

As part of Traditions, we went out into Magic Kingdom to view some of the things we had learned about. The room was split into two groups: Team Stitch, and Team Olaf. It was my suggestion for Team Olaf that won. Then each table had to have a team captain to make sure everyone from their table kept up with the group through the park. I was voted captain and the other two guys with me were Alex and Matt. I still run into Matt a lot, but I’ve yet to see Alex again since Traditions! 
At the beginning of Traditions, I met a lot of people I ended up having orientation with the next day. That was really nice to have familiar faces in my area that I now get to see often. When we went to Park Orientation, we had a big group of us that toured Magic Kingdom, then we later split up into our areas and toured those more specifically. At that point we found out what attraction we would be at. Since my interview I have wanted to be at Jungle Cruise. I had been told I had a good chance of getting it, so I had a lot of hope leading me on. Our facilitators for the day were David and Dan; David is mostly a pirate, and sometimes a butler, and Dan is a skipper. David was handing out the papers with our roles on them, and he came to me and asked what I wanted. I said, “Jungle Cruise?” And he handed me the paper. Jungle Cruise was at the top. My heart caught in my throat, and I couldn’t breathe. Then I looked further down on the sheet and said, “But I’m not Hannah Miller! I’m Hannah Jackson! But I’ll be her so I can be at Jungle Cruise!” And tried so hard not to cry because of all the disappointment. My actual schedule was at the bottom of the list so I had to wait, and finally got met REAL assignment: Pirates of the Caribbean. Before, I had said that Pirates would be an awesome second choice if I didn’t get Jungle. I would have been so excited if I hadn’t gotten excited over the mistake. It took a good 20 minutes to get over it, but now I couldn’t be happier to be a pirate. 
The other people in my Adventureland/Liberty Square (forever now referred to as Ad/Lib) group were:
  • Rebecca-Jungle Cruise
  • Jon-Pirates
  • Haley- ATT (Aladdin/Tiki/Treehouse)
  • Sarah- Haunted Mansion
  • Pam- Pirates
We went through Ad/Lib and saw our break rooms, rode a few of the attractions, and learned a lot about our area. I had so much fun walking around hearing about all of the behind-the-scenes and history of Ad/Lib, and David and Dan were really great. During lunch, David was telling us about all the other things he’s done and still does, like building haunted houses and doing horror makeup. We talked about jobs before coming to Disney, and where we would like to see ourselves after the program. It was really nice to get to spend time with the people I will most likely be working with for the next six months. 
The next day of orientation, we had Laura and Lindsay. Laura has been at Haunted Mansion for 17 years, and took us behind the scenes of the ride. She told us about meeting Neil Patrick Harris, and touching Tim McGraw’s butt. Lindsay pretty much works everything in Ad/Lib, and they were both great resources for the questions I had. I have been going through everyone I’ve talked to, asking how they got started at Disney and what they would suggest for me, since I’m wanting to stay on after my program ends. 

On Sunday the 20th, I began my first day of On The Job Training. Jon and I had the same training schedule with Kristina, and we started bright and early that morning, arriving at Magic Kingdom at 6:30 am. We had four days of training before our assessment, and I feel like we learned a lot. I loved the way Kristina trained us. She would verbally explain what we were going to do, show us, then have us do it. Then later we would read the Operating Guide and all the legal jargon about what we had just learned. I felt very well-prepared for the assessment as well as being at work on my own.

After my first closing shift during training, we were all leaving together and there was talk of going to IHOP together. So I got a ride with one of the girls, and went to IHOP with a group of people I had just met. I felt so comfortable with this group of people, and it made me so excited for this program and to be able to work with them regularly.

I had my assessment on Sunday the 26th, and felt confident enough. Cera assessed us and made it very fun and not stressful at all. It was no different than anything we had done in our training, just with an added written test. But the training room was full of other trainees and trainers from all over Ad/Lib, and they were talking and joking around the whole time. Not to say it wasn’t taken seriously, but it’s just a fun place to be.

That’s mostly an update of my first few weeks, though I do have a few other moments and experiences to share; they just don’t have much to do with the getting settled/training part. But I’m very excited to be here and learn all I’m going to, and meet the people I will. Wish me luck  on my first day being on the job without a trainer helping me through!

One Month

It’s December 13th.

It’s 8 days till my birthday.
12 days till Christmas.
I guess it didn’t register yesterday that today would mark 1 month till DCP takeoff. But when I woke up at 4:30 in the morning to check my phone and Paige tweeted this lovely reminder:
It’s getting down to the wire. I have a lot of “lasts” coming up. It’s both exciting and scary. This is different than leaving for college in Abilene, this is the other side of the country. There are 1260 miles between Lubbock and Orlando. I can’t just drive home for a quick weekend like I could last year. This next 8 months will definitely change me, and help me grow. But before that I have:
  • My birthday in 8 days on the 21st.
  • 4 more days at Always Tan. My last day is the 23rd.
  • 11 more days at my parent’s store. My last day is the 4th.
  • Lots of last-minute things to do to prepare like:
    • Get the oil changed in my car and check tire pressure before our road trip.
    • Finish packing and load up the cars.
    • Hang out with my friends one last time.
    • Spend Christmas with my family.
    • Clean out my car and room.
  • Go to Inkfluence and have them remove my conch piercing. I didn’t realize that you can’t just unscrew the ring, but in fact have to pry it apart. So that’s fun. 
Yesterday, Athena’s and my shower curtain came in the mail! I bought that, and she got the bathmat and trashcan and other necessities. We’ll buy the shower liner when we get down there. I’ve never felt like such an adult and child at the same time buying my own Mickey Mouse shower curtain for my apartment. There’s still a lot we will need to buy once we’re there; things like food and cleaning supplies and such. 
It’s just still becoming real. I don’t think it will really hit me fully until I am going through Traditions, and even then, I won’t believe it. 

The Importance of Working for Disney

I’m writing this very late after-the-fact, but I feel like I need to stick up for myself and for others in a similar situation. When it come to doing the DCP, for a lot of people, the program is VERY important to them. It’s important in many ways, because they have grown up loving Disney and the movies and the characters and what the company means. Doing the program is a dream come true for people like me. It’s more important that I get to learn about working for the company that I love and get to create magical moments for guests than it is that I’m getting to put it on my resume. I would do the program even if it wasn’t impressive on my resume. It means that much to me that I participate in this great and magical opportunity.

I’ve had more magical moments AS a guest in the parks than I could even imagine. I’ve had great experience waiting in long lines for characters:
The Character Attendant for Phineas and Ferb last May:

Him: “are you a mermaid?”
Him:”It’s the hair. I knew it.”
Me:”I only have three days here!!”
Him:”Oh, you have to find a prince! You know what you should do? Marry one of the Star Wars guys. That way you can be on land AND the galaxy! “

Me:”Eeeehhh Illthink about it.”
And this:
Not to mention that both my 18th and 19th birthdays and graduation were celebrated in a Disney Park. Nothing is more magical than having every CM that sees you genuinely wish you a happy birthday. During the first trip, we were eating in Adventureland at Tortuga and a little girl from the next table ran over to me and told me happy birthday. Just being there with the generally-happy people (obviously there are grumpies, but I’ve had good experiences so far) is really amazing. 
I saw this post on Tumblr the other day:
I hope you can read it, because it’s exactly how I feel. And I read this after something that happened to me, and the real reason for this post. Link here because the photo isn’t very clear.
I understand not everyone doing the program BLEEDS DISNEY like me. But I know enough people that do and I know how important the program is to them. Others are just doing it as a job. I’ve seen many people admit that they feel guilty because they see how much this means to some people, and people that didn’t get in the program this year. They feel bad that they got accepted and it doesn’t mean the same to them. What I don’t understand is, why would you even APPLY to the program if you didn’t believe in what you were going to do for 5-8 months? Would it not be hard to “fake” the magic everyone else naturally feels? I could work at some government internship for 8 months and want to kill myself because I don’t speak that lingo or feel anything for that. So I won’t apply for anything like that, even if it looked good on a resume. 
One of the (few) things I’ve loved about the main DCP Facebook page is the advice from alumni. One said they regretted not knowing any basic Spanish while on their program, because so many people speak it that come to the parks and it was difficult to communicate. I totally agreed with this, and it’s made me look up some vocabulary I might need, just to be able to know a few words here and there. I’ve had 6 years of Spanish, but due to the lack of great teachers, I don’t know as much as I should. So though I will not, most likely, have a name tag like this:
I hope to someday. But I thought this person’s post was helpful. They weren’t saying “You need to be bilingual before doing the program” but were just saying pick up some basic direction words that would be very useful to other guests. 
On Twitter later, a girl I followed (note past-tense) was going off about how there was no way she would learn another language just for a minimum wage job and she didn’t want to be yelled at in another language anyway. It was several Tweets in a row talking badly about this Facebook post and so I subtweeted. Some subtweets are mean, but that was not my intention. And, honestly, it wasn’t just about her. Like I said above, many people have made comments about the program that do not reflect my views and opinions. I subtweeted basically what I said earlier, “If you aren’t excited about the program, why did you even apply?” and she called me out on it. The night before I had a conversation with someone else doing the program who admitted to me that he is just doing the program to do it. This tweet was NOT just about this one particular girl, but it was on my mind because of her mini-rant. 
(direct screenshot quote) “Yeah, people are going to go though the trouble of learning an entire language for a fucking minimum wage job. Disney People.” 
My subtweet.
“Because I want to terrorize you all. I’m just kidding. I am excited lol. I just think some of these people are overly obsessed.”
“Yeaaaah I’m one of those people XD Sorry I have dreams” complete with the little laughing-so-hard-they’re-crying emoji. See, I wasn’t arguing with her. I was laughing and owning up to it. Even saying “sorry I have dreams” wasn’t sarcastic in my meaning. It probably appeared that way, but it wasn’t my intention.
“Well good for you. My dream is to be a lawyer, advocating for children in the foster case system. Yours is just the DCP.” 
and then some other girl I don’t know replied with “Mmmmm those minimum wage dreams, the best kind! #girlbye” 
I did respond to the lawyer comment and told her–GENUINELY–“I wish you the best! n_n That’s a wonderful and fulfilling career.” And I meant every word of it!! I don’t care if she thought I was being patronizing, I wasn’t. 
Then lawyer-girl continues “Okay I don’t want to fight with you. I apologize for even responding to your tweet. I just knew it was about me. “ 
and continues again “I know I seem cynical but that’s just my personality. I love Disney and am very proud to be selected to work there.” 
and STILL continues, “I don’t want enemies before we even get there. I’ll try not to complain so much about Disney people anymore.”

I never replied, because whatever I would have said would have been awful. Not to say I didn’t share my thoughts with Jaelen and my friend who loves Disney just as much if not more than me, Colin. But I wasn’t going to lash out on this girl I don’t even know. But honestly, it’s like the Tumblr post above. My “dream” isn’t doing the DCP for the rest of my life. It’s a stepping stone to it, yes. My dreams aren’t over in August. But they do start in January. The way she and the other girl responded, you’d think I’d told them my dream was to work at McDonalds. Working for Disney is so much more than just a job to pay bills. That isn’t why I’m doing it. Trust me, everyone says, “Don’t do the DCP to make money because you won’t.” But I AM doing it because it is what will get me to working within the company later on, if that is what I want to do in the future. 
So, if you want to get through it and put it on your resume and then go do whatever the heck you want, go for it. As for me and others that I know, I’m going to make the very most of my program and my experience and be the very best Cast Member that I can possibly be and I will work hard, earn my Four Keys Fanatic recognition cards, and find where I want to be within the company. I will follow the rules and withhold the legacy of the company that Walt himself set in place. #GirlBye

25 Things to Do Before You’re 25

I found this list on Tumblr earlier this evening, and really liked it.


25 Things To Do Before You Turn 25″

1. Make peace with your parents. Whether you finally recognize that they actually have your best interests in mind or you forgive them for being flawed human beings, you can’t happily enter adulthood with that familial brand of resentment.

2. Kiss someone you think is out of your league; kiss models and med students and entrepreneurs with part-time lives in Dubai and don’t worry about if they’re going to call you afterward.
3. Minimize your passivity.
4. Work a service job to gain some understanding of how tipping works, how to keep your cool around assholes, how a few kind words can change someone’s day.
5. Recognize freedom as a 5:30 a.m. trip to the diner with a bunch of strangers you’ve just met.
6. Try not to beat yourself up over having obtained a ‘useless’ Bachelor’s Degree. Debt is hell, and things didn’t pan out quite like you expected, but you did get to go to college, and having a degree isn’t the worst thing in the world to have. We will figure this mess out, I think, probably; the point is you’re not worth less just because there hasn’t been an immediate pay off for going to school. Be patient, work with what you have, and remember that a lot of us are in this together.
7. If you’re employed in any capacity, open a savings account. You never know when you might be unemployed or in desperate need of getting away for a few days. Even $10 a week is $520 more a year than you would’ve had otherwise.
8. Make a habit of going outside, enjoying the light, relearning your friends, forgetting the internet.
9. Go on a 4-day, brunch-fueled bender.
10. Start a relationship with your crush by telling them that you want them. Directly. Like, look them in the face and say it to them. Say, I want you. I want to be with you.
11. Learn to say ‘no’ — to yourself. Don’t keep wearing high heels if you hate them; don’t keep smoking if you’re disgusted by the way you smell the morning after; stop wasting entire days on your couch if you’re going to complain about missing the sun.
12. Take time to revisit the places that made you who you are: the apartment you grew up in, your middle school, your hometown. These places may or may not be here forever; you definitely won’t be.
13. Find a hobby that makes being alone feel lovely and empowering and like something to look forward to.
14. Think you know yourself until you meet someone better than you.
15. Forget who you are, what your priorities are, and how a person should be.
16. Identify your fears and instead of letting them dictate your every move, find and talk to people who have overcome them. Don’t settle for experiencing .000002% of what the world has to offer because you’re afraid of getting on a plane.
17. Make a habit of cleaning up and letting go. Just because it fit at one point doesn’t mean you need to keep it forever — whether ‘it’ is your favorite pair of pants or your ex.
18. Stop hating yourself.
19. Go out and watch that movie, read that book, listen to that band you already lied about watching, reading, listening to.
20. Take advantage of health insurance while you have it.
21. Make a habit of telling people how you feel, whether it means writing a gushing fan-girl email to someone whose work you love or telling your boss why you deserve a raise.
22. Date someone who says, “I love you” first.
23. Leave the country under the premise of “finding yourself.” This will be unsuccessful. Places do not change people. Instead, do a lot of solo drinking, read a lot of books, have sex in dirty hostels, and come home when you start to miss it.
24. Suck it up and buy a Macbook Pro.
25. Quit that job that’s making you miserable, end the relationship that makes you act like a lunatic, lose the friend whose sole purpose in life is making you feel like you’re perpetually on the verge of vomiting. You’re young, you’re resilient, there are other jobs and relationships and friends if you’re patient and open.

January Nelson


This is copied and pasted straight from the post in which I found it. I just thought it was a great list that reminds me, personally, that everyone is human and has doubts, fears, and dreams. This post encourages me to just worry about myself and not worry about others like I tend to do. 

Last Day to Hear From Disney

I forgot that there are still people who have not heard back from Disney…

I almost feel like I (and others who have been accepted) have taken for granted the fact that we are accepted.  Having been in the position of rejection from last semester, I can’t imagine how I would have felt if I had been a part of the community on Facebook. Although I didn’t make it this far into the application progress last semester, it still would have been very difficult. But for those who have been waiting for news and did not get the answer you wanted, I want to offer this:

This will sound patronizing and may not make you feel any better, but please know it comes from my heart. I have been here. I was full of excitement to apply, and devastated when I did not make it past the WBI (I’ll write more about this in a later post). I didn’t even have a chance to be considered or pended. To me, I thought my chances were shot forever and would never make it because I had failed the first WBI I took. But my mom encouraged me to apply again this semester, and I couldn’t be happier that I didn’t give up. Had I been there for this semester, yes I would have met great people, I’m sure. But I would not have the roommates I’m going to, I wouldn’t meet the people I’m going to. I was not meant to be in the Disney College Program in the Fall of 2013, and I see that now. But in February, it killed me.

Your time is not the spring, for whatever reason. Apply for fall. You’ll get to be there for CHRISTMAS for Pete’s sake. Why apply for Spring when you can experience Christmas at Disney. Think of all the friends you will make the next time you apply that you never would have if you went this coming semester. There is a reason you are where you are, and I wish I could tell you why. This semester for me hasn’t been the greatest, and hasn’t been what I wanted it to be; next semester is my time. Maybe the next is yours. But whatever you do: DON’T GIVE UP. You are not any less a magical person because you are no longer in consideration. There is a special place at a Disney Park for you in a future semester.

I really hope this helped put the situation you are in into perspective. At least try and think about it that way. All I can stress is that everything works out exactly as it is supposed to, whether it’s the timing you want or not. 🙂

Maybe this is dumb, but I want to say it anyway: If you want to talk to someone (about anything, really), I’d love if you would message me! If you want to know how it is to be in the DCP so you’re even more prepared for when you get it, add me on Facebook or follow this blog or whatever. I have LOVED Instagram stalking current CPs this semester, getting to see what they experience. So don’t be afraid to do something like that. It actually helps to live vicariously through others.